I read for fun. I read to learn. I read to better myself.
If it was up to me I would read what I like all day and get paid for it.
But alas I have to work as a janitor in order to get money.
Today I read Conspiracy of the Rich by Robert Kiyosaki and the Book of Proverbs in the Holy Bible.
I plan to read The Autobiography of John D. Rockefeller after I make a YouTube video.
I wish that I had enough passive income to fund my life. I wish I didn’t feel like God hates me. I wish I could sleep in tomorrow. But all these things are just wishful thinking.
The hard facts are that life is hard.
You live, work like a mule most of your life then live just long enough to realize you were a step on the boss man’s ladder.
The only options I have are to quit my job and have no income. Or work at a job I hate for low income.
Why would God be so cruel to set things up this way?
Maybe He’s just cruel. I have prayed but my prayers remained unanswered.
Seriously just putting it down in words makes me resentful towards God.
He blesses unbelievers, killers and raiders but condemns the righteous.
I guess I should try to find the silver lining in things but can’t. Believing in God has made my heart hard and my neck stiff.
Which breaks my heart because I grew up believing that God was supposed to be a good father, but in reality He is a deadbeat dad.
He lies, cheats and betrays the trust of those that put their faith in Him.
I seriously don’t want to feel this way anymore but can’t continue to put my head in the sand.
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