I went to work today and now am happy to be home chilling.
I am happy because I was able to see my family today.
I am happy that my grandma lived a long full life and is now resting in peace.
Praise be to God for allowing me to be happy.
I know that I have been focusing on what I lack, things like affiliate marketing sales and a girlfriend but after seeing death up close and personal at my job and now mourning my last grandparent’s passing I just want to enjoy my time on earth.
I have been craving smoking weed again (I live in California and it’s legal here) but I don’t because I would disappoint my family.
I honestly don’t know why I am denying myself. I just don’t do it.
Plus I am investing most of my disposable income because I have been denying myself the pleasure of partaking in this vice.
If I were to make come into a lot of money I don’t think I would be as disciplined.
As I write this I am listening to Michael Saylor talk about robots and AI taking away all the ways I can make money in less than ten years.
Sucks because I keep on trying to better my situation but I can’t. Every day it seems like I am falling behind.
The only thing that distinguishes me is that I am the only one who has responded to all of the YHWH account’s posts on www.X.com.
For whatever that is worth.
I went out on a limb and I lost.
So much for my faith in God.
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